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Tuesday, April 14th, 2009
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There is to much violence in this world...and not enough hardcore public girl on girl action. I am as of now advocating more public girl on girl action. Come on people (mostly the women out there, sorry guys but I don't want me or my future kids to see your dangles) make this dream a reality.
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To my little Sister, have a wonderful day on this the date of your escape of imprisonment in your Mothers body.
Love you Sis!
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I think that we all know I am in no way political, and the only thing I know anymore is that we need a change. I think this is so important that I'm leaving this post open to everyone because it makes me so sick that the only way anyone can make a change these days is to be put on the list of the "Potential Terrorist" and have a confession beaten out of them, where the hell did the United Nations go, and what the fuck are they doing, HELLO FUCKING DARFUR!!!!!!!!! What the fuck happend to this country??? Are we so afraid of terrorists, or is it that we're afraid of the people who are supposed to be looking out for "our" better interests. Or are we all just such fuck ups that we don't give a shit anymore because we think we're so far fromt he problem? I salute you Henry Rollins, you're an amazing man, and I certianly hope you can change this before they stick you in Guantonimo Bay.
How the hell does someone make a difference these days? Do you have to get shot in the head or kill a whole bunch of people to make it 5 minutes on the news? We're spiraling towards our own ends people.
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Well I still don't know if I get to keep my credits or not. I put my "petition" which my advisor wrote for me, which in a nice way he said "give me the damn credits, or help me God will spank you." I love this guy. Right now Julian Sands is on Stargate: SG1, so I'm actually sort of happy for a couple of fleeting seconds. I love Julian Sands, and this episode is about the only thing I've ever seen him in that he actually lives through. Reminds me of Michael Wincott. If you don't know who any of these people are, shame on you. Anyway, I was able to finally schedule my classes because I finally found out what I needed. As I understand it, I only need 15 credits of upper level classes, which would only give me 117 credits, a couple classes short of other majors. I got an Eastern Philopshy class on Hinduism, Budhism, Confushisum, Shintoism, and Zen Budhism. Website design, a history class on cultural differences between South America, Africa below the Sahara, and all over Asia, and I have a "walking" health class that doesn't kick in until October. And I'm also trying to get into a class called "Genocide in the 20th century". Just try to tell me that class isn't for me... If ACC will take my math class and this 1 credit physical class, then by the time I graduate from Mansfield, I'll also be graduating from ACC. So I'll have an Associates in Art Studio, and a B.A. in Liberal Studies with concentration in Art Studio. I think I might do ok, since most of the jobs I've been looking through only require the 4 year degree. And when you think about it, art schools are normally only 2 years, and don't give out 4 year degree's so they might be one of the best places to learn Graphic Design and Illistration, and Multi-media, but they still won't have the experience, or the degree for most high paying jobs.
I realized today that while I was being laaaaaazy all damn day (I didn't get out of bed well until after 2, I haven't slept in in so long. It felt really good) that I need someone to pamper me. My feet and the rest of my body is killing me. Stress is welling up inside of every faucet of my being. So I think I'll start taking applications for avaliable pampering. Send me your resumes. It will be a paid position, with health care.
I've also decided that I'm going to re-grow my hair long, so when it's long enough I can have it chopped off, and have really long, and thick bangs in the front, like I want. I've also decided that along with my hair, I'm going to grow out my beard too. Just like Wanye Static...
 , I know you really can't see him that well, go find a picture if you want, but ultimately his heard is like a foot long, but he normally has it braided like Layne Staley (Satan rest his soul) used to have in the mid 90's. I think it could be rather interesting. I used to have just my "goat" long-ish, but this time I'm trying it all. Just to shake things up.
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Ok ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) maxx, I'd be the first one because I have no life...
1. what do you think of me? Well you're funny, constant amusement. Constantly getting cockblocked, and I feel totally racist around you:).
2.what was your overall experience of otakon 2005? I had a lot of fun, most of the anime wasn't really that good, but the people were fun.
3.what do you plan on doing as a career? I'd like to be an art teacher and graphic designer.
4.whats your favorite anime besides lupin? RahXephon.
5. are you and your ladyfriend still together?..i honestly don't know if u are lol. Nope, we weren't even together then.
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Here you go buddy, and just for you, and only for you I took this seriously.
1. Why is the butterfly knife your favorite? The Butterfly is my favorite because it's one of the easiet to conceal and yet do a lot of damage, plus it looks damn cool spinning in your hand. And it's one of the easiet knives to do tricks with.
2. How much of that exorcism was actual procedure? Pretty much all of it up till Russell got himself stuck between his bed and the wall, and I started douching him with Holy Water and reading the Bible upside down.
3. Favorite roommate: Dave or Win? Are we trying to start a fight here? They both have their good points and bad points. Dave is funny and smelly, Win and I get drunk a lllllooooootttttt, but he's messy. I would have to say that both of them together would be the greatest thing ever.
4. Out of the HBTers with whom you've lost touch or seldom speak, who do you miss most? I think for the most part, it would have to be Colleen. I miss her like crazy most of the time. We had a lot of fun, and some really good talks. I really do miss her and HBT would be so much better off with a dozen of her right now.
5. What's your least favorite Mansfield memory? Oddly enough, it's a tie between realizing that going back would have been the biggest mistake that I could have made, and actually going back. Some people just really need to learn from their mistakes. Ohh and maybe getting punched in the face at a Shinedown concert. Who the fuck starts a pit at a Shinedown show???
I guess I should do the "if you want me to interview you, respond to this". No one will so it makes me job easier.
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Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
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Happy Birthday you MAGNIFICENT BASTARD!!!!!!!
may your life be long and useful like toliet paper
and may your women be plentyful, and bountyful....
Love you man
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Did NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT have a good day at work.
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I'm advertising broken_therapy again, along with asking people what programs they use when they make animative icons, for which I need to make, and do all the annoying stuff that I never even bothered to finish for this one. But self promotion is a bitch...
broken_therapy add it, love it, read it...
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I have a new journal, I'll still be using this one to update and crap, but now I have one for my art work and shit like that. It's called broken_therapy. Add me if you wish.
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Thursday, March 30th, 2006
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Alton Brown really makes me want to learn how to cook.
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Whens the last time I puked so hard and so often that I could feel my throat bleeding? Whens the last time that all I could think about was putting my fist through a wall, a door, a mirror, a window, someones head? Whens the last time I wanted to bleed this bad? Whens the last time I cried so hard I wished I could have drowned in my own pool of tears? Whens the last time I felt so empty, whens the last time I hated myself this much? Whens the last time I felt so stupid? When was the last time I hated myself for not being able to hate? What has changed in me so much that I have to care? Why can't I block myself off, delete the world away? Whens the last time I've been so mad that all I can do is laugh? When was the last time that I scared myself this much? Whens the last time that I've felt so grateful, and yet so ashamed? Whens the last time I beat myself up? Whens the last time I drank so much that I didn't care anymore? Whens the last time I tried to drink myself to death? Whens the last time I smiled and it wasn't empty? Whens the last time I didn't feel dead inside? Whens the last time I wished I was dead inside? Whens the time I laid in bed with a freshly sharpened knife over my chest, wondering if tonight is the night? When was the last time I beat the living hell out of myself because I was to afraid to end it all? The last 2 I can answer. It was the happiest day of my life. June 19th, 1999. The day I realized that no matter what life still has beauty, and the bravest thing you can do is find that beauty, pick most of those questions up there and June 19th, 1999 will most likely be the answer. And today, I have a new question to add. Whens the last time I've felt this lost and alone? And the answer would be March 26, 2006. Nothing last forever. Welcome to the barren wasteland that is me.
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Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
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What the hell happend with adding pictures????
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Sunday, January 1st, 2006
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Happy New Year, may 2006 bring just as much pain, loneliness, and isolation as 2005.
I hope that you all have given up something good, I have decided to be ambitous this year and give up both heroin, and gay sex. I'm going to better myself one way of the other. Good night, find someone to kiss and hold, and be happy with your contentment. Stability is a gift that Santa never brings, and Father Time can't reproduce it in a pill.
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Monday, November 21st, 2005
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Yesterday was my Birthday, to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday, thank you. Which was more people then I expected. To those of you who didn't, you can go fuck yourselves. I guess it's nice to be loved by someone.
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Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
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One last reminder:
Today is Sunday, October 23rd. In one week, that's 7 days. There will be a Devil's Night party at my house.
Your formal invitation, right here:
You are all invited to a Devil's Night party. A costume Devil's Night Party (but costumes aren't needed).
When is this party? I just answered that:
-Sunday, October 30th.
Where is this party? I'm glad you asked:
-Mansfield, Pennsylvania (if you need directions, just ask).
What time does this party start? Good question:
-It'll start when the first guest arrives, and it will end when the last guest leaves (Note: the first guest better not be the only guest).
Should I RSVP?
-It would be very nice, but not completely needed.
What should I bring?
-You should bring yourself, in costume. You may also bring a bottle of something to drink, or a case of beer. I will be buying alcoholic drinks, but since I've never had a party that has turned out well, I don't know how much to buy. But I will be providing alcoholic drinks, regular drinks, and assorted party foods.
How do you get a hold of me?
-Nephalimanger on AIM
-Nephalimanger@gmail.com
-Want the phone number, just ask.
Hope to see you here.
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Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
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Dear Diary,
I don't know why but right now I'm in a really good mood. I'm almost smiling non-stop, this is bad for me, my face is going to crack. Maybe it's the bi-polar in me trying to even everything out??? Or maybe it's because I don't have Contempary Moral Problems for the rest of the week!!!! If I wasn't white, and actually had rythm, I'd think about dancing.
And if you've noticed I've also responded to a lot of your posts, it's not that I don't read them, I always read your posts, I normally just don't respond unless I feel that it deserves my "special" attention. I will try to correct this in the future, non of you should be punished with a meaningless life without me. Come on admit it, I am the light that leads your lives.......... I can almost hear the laughing.
Ok, enough about that crap, on to the party shit:
This is everyone's informal invitation who is reading this, I'm inviting all of you lovely people, people from Mansfield University, and people that I work with at Wal-Mart, and people that I used to work with at DCDC (Danville Child Development Center). So if by some mirical most of you actually make it, don't be worried if you see a bunch of people that you don't know, chances are they might be friendly (really friendly when they're drunk), and want to have sex with you!!! I'm always looking out for you guys.
I will supply a certian amount of beer, harder drinks, normal drinks, snack type foods, and as much entertainment as I see fit. I would like to keep the underage drinking down to a minimum, so if you're underage and have been invited, please don't make anyone go to jail, I have an ex-cop living across the street. Sleeping space will also be provided, so if you know you're coming, and you're staying bring a sleeping bag or something. **Disclaimer: We have been having a flea problem with the cats over the last couple of days to a week, the house will be bombed, and carpets disenfected, so hopefully they'll all be dead, but as most of you know, when you have pets that barely step outside, they get fleas, they have been washed, sprayed, tagged, and dipped. This problem will go away.** If you have any ideas for fun games or anything like that please let me know. Just so you know there will be a rousing game of Nazi, 3 man if I can remember how to play, and Drunken Candyland, and maybe even bobbing for apples if I feel like drowning someone. And it's ok if you want to bring a "significant other" just please don't bring your entire family, I would like to keep a little smaller than most parties, and since we have people living next door (unless they come), I'd like to keep it a little quieter too. But hey, most of you won't show anyway so what's the point? But to those of you who do, I promise you fun. Ohh and most importantly, come in COSTUME!!!! It's a freak'n Devils Night party that will push over into Halloween, so think big.
And now onto the emotional stuff. I saw one of the cutest little girls at work last night bugging the crap out of her Dad for a toy. All I could do ws look at the both of them and smile, and think to myself, "yeah, I'm not ready for kids yet." This is all.
Diary, you're my only true friend. I'll write in you again later.
~Fuzzy Lumpk'n's(.)
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Thursday, October 13th, 2005
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Ok, everyone, I put this off long enough. Devil's Night; October 30th will hold a very special place in everyone's hearts who would like to show up. WE'RE HAVING A PARTY!!! Come in costume, will have drinks of all kinds. Whose invited, glad you asked... Anyone who is reading this, so if you find yourself around the Mansfield, Pennsylvania area on that certain night, stop on by. If you're lucky written inventations maybe sent out also. Depends on how lazy I am. And since Pisser kicked me off his friends list, someone tell him to bring that dumb bitch Yolanda.
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I'm sure some of you have read Holly's post about her friend Liz that was in a car accident, and is now in the hospital and doing better now. Well I didn't think I knew her. Holly just informed me that I do know her. She lives in the town where I lived, she went to High School with me. She went to my Senior Prom with me. Yeah, she's my ex-girlfriend Liz... The first girl that I've ever wanted to propose to, the first girl that I've ever wanted to give everything to. The first girl who defined my existence. Don't get me wrong, there were girls before her, but not like her. She was, is and always will be beautiful, amazing, graceful (ask to see her toepoint sometime), and a thousand other adjectives.
But as they always do, things change. Women don't define my existence anymore. I define it. I just wanted to make this entry about Liz, but then I realized that life always has little twists and turns. So be careful of the relationships that you have with others, never, ever let things get in the way of people that you truely care about. And love, love as hard as you can. Find someone that you can spend every second with because thats all life is, just a mere second. I have mine, now go find yours.
I love you Steph.
I don't even feel like making this post friends only.
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pissed off.
blah.
tired.
bored.
drained.
And I have no idea why.